...electricuted...

for the first time(in 17 years)...grounded ako. my cellphone is no more ....hay. oh well... it's fine with me. although nakakabato ang walang cellphone, mas kinabahan ako sa aming "talk" ni mama. I use to cry everytime we have the "talk", kc iisa isahin ni mama lahat ng kapalpakan ko for the last..uhm...year..or something. I hate confrontations...and you don't know my mom. Tonight was different..i was quiet(as always) but no tears fell from my eyes...cguro kc alam ko na ang sasabihin niya at alam kong dadami lang lalo un pag umiyak pa ako. It all started with the bill...then to the boys...then to the studies..then to the.."going-out-without-permission"..to the..uhm...the list goes on. All throughout the 30 mins. torture (parang di lang 30 mins un), ang nasabi ko lang ay "ako mali", dahil un lang naman talaga ang nasa utak ko, at un lang ang gusto kong malaman niya. GOd has a way of keeping the balance in my "days" eh, there's always something good and something bad that would happen. Example pag peste ang araw ko dahi sa test or something...basta peste..bago matapos ang araw papasayahin niya ako. Either may makikita akong long lost crush ko or "someone" will make me happy, or may chickenjoy sa hapagkainan. O kaya naman pag masaya araw ko, may mangyayaring bad before the day ends. So I was asking Him kanina...pano kaya siya babawi sa kamalasan ko ngaung araw na to, at sa aking pagmumuni-muni ay naicp kong...that's the best (and sensible)conversation I ever had in..uhm...a long time. There's a lot of room for self-improvement. Tsaka..mabuti na din siguro ang pagconfiscate ng cp ko..(although mamimiss ko talaga xa, sana ibalik agad, sana maawa si mama./sob). Actually di din dapat ako nasa harap ng pc ngaun...hehehe. eh, whatever.hahaha. So..first time to...it's not so bad after all.