me: err...(slap his face lightly). ano ba
ex: hindi nga...
me:oo na. mahal na kita (sabay tapik sa likod)
yesterday was a ...err... freaky day. hehe. with my first long exam in 54, na super sure na ako ibabagsak ko. dahil wala akong naisagot. grrr..kc naman eh. And a "reunion" with my ex.. na ang tagal ko nang di nakabonding...oh yeah..we "bonded" (not that kind of bonding, u pervert!). And it was really, well, it didn't help my present mood. I've been trying to get away from something (or somebody) lately and normally, ang pakikipagharutan sa iba ay effective. I prove myself wrong. You know what happened?!?...well...at the back of my head i'm so hoping i'm with somebody else. no, i'm not gonna whine about how i hate myself for liking him again. I'm through with that...too much thinking makes my head hurt.(hihi). I just resolved I should start learning where and when to draw the line. I always let myself go I end up with a broken heart, or a broken fist for breaking somebody else's heart. So here's a list of what I think I should avoid..
- the ilu words- well, the words are addicting. it's a great way to say "thank you", or "sorry", or "do me", no not that, i mean "please", and a hell lot of other things. somehow, i'm beggining to forget the essense of the words. so..i think i should just say it when i really mean it.
- sweet txt msgs- yeah. i admit, i still call my exes "bhe", with the "mwah!" at the end of every txt. i have to cut that. even if it's fun, it's just too cheezy
- green- no not the color. I love green. hehe. i just can't control myself when it comes to green jokes. My mind is fast in processing those kind of data. I should just try to modulate it though, i don't wanna look like a friggin' pervert
- uber kind- oh yeah. i chose the term "uber",coz it makes the term terrible. i think i should start being a little more mean. hehe. i miss the mean me.
- stalker txter- 24/7 txting of nonsense things is a great way to be close to someone, before he issue a restricting order. But i really find it fun, well..until the bill comes in.
- plain flirting- haha. should i elaborate?!? no..u don't wanna know the details.
- thinking too much- "thinking is fuckin' hard!...so if i think, i fuck hard"--wahaha. go red!!(teehee). But i've been thinking too much lately, overanalyzing things, paranoia spelled all over me. i think i should resort to torturing my body instead of my brain. oh yeah..i'd go violent from now on..wahaha
- sleeping around- no! i don't do this. but just a thought. u shouldn't be doing "actions of intimacy"(e.g. kissing, holding hands, f*ckin..) if not needed. One should control the urge. Self control is a gift. Besides, the sensation doesn't last long, the aftermath is far more terrible...either u'd end up in jail for being a nympho, u'd end up in a hospital giving birth, u'd end up 6 feet under for aids, or worse, you'd end up killing urself because u feel so fuckin' low after what u just did.
there...having said that. I'd get back to my sleep and see if i'd choke. ..
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