...reminiscin...

"o todz!! nung last time kitang nakita sexy ka pero may laman, ngaun payat mo na"
"huh?!?"
"gusto ko naman katawan mo ngaun eh, pero parang biglang payat naman, auko naman kc ung dinedeprive ung sarili sa food, anong klaseng pagdidiet ba ginawa mo"

oh come on! d naman ganon pinayat ko since highschool no. in fact..di naman ako payat eh...taba ko nga eh.

hayskul...

at last!!!
nakuha na ang jm ...short for junior memorabilia.. a.k.a. yearbook. walking through the lhs grounds ..seeing familiar faces...faces i haven't seen for what seems like forever ,bakit ganon..parang ang tagal na...

seeing my batchmates, my teachers and mentors , my friends, my enemies (oooohhh...meron nga ba), my classrooms, the cr, my "crying spot", the tambayans, the trees, my exes, my crushes...wow naman...nostalgia and melancholy overdose...

kanina, i'm just so happy to see them again...soooo happy, kwento dito kwento jan, kamuztahan, isnaban, at kung ano ano pa. though, i'm not that popular in highschool and this kind of affair is something i'm not really excited about, i admit..masaya talaga kanina.

then i got home, and in a short moment of loneliness i realized....tapos na..wala na ulit..busy na ulit...balik na ulit sa katotohanang it's all over....i looked into the pictures, the memories seem to haunt me again, those were the days, i could've made a difference..but it's over...it's just over. something inside me is wondering...what happened?!?, everything just changed, everything just faded. everything is sooooo different now. why? why should it be like this..

i don't usually question how things turn out...they just do, we just have to live with that. but i can't help but wish for things that could never be....

i recognize this feeling, i know it won't be long before the water from my eyes spill upon the pages...

and i just let them flow...